punkyangel 609: if you learn anything about me at all
punkyangel 609: its that i dont say things i dont mean
SexiDaddy07: ashley
punkyangel 609: and if i do im usually fighting with the person but when its over
punkyangel 609: i tell them i didnt mean it
punkyangel 609: hmm
SexiDaddy07: you are truly one of a kind
SexiDaddy07: if there were more people that had that attitude
SexiDaddy07: this world would be a better place
punkyangel 609: its a start .. if there is anything i do right its i try and make every1 else happie before miiself
punkyangel 609: because
punkyangel 609: if i cud stop
punkyangel 609: any1
punkyangel 609: from dealing with everything i deal
punkyangel 609: with
punkyangel 609: i wud
punkyangel 609: in a heartbeat
punkyangel 609: bc even tho things like that make you stronger
punkyangel 609: all you can do is look at it as tho urself doesnt matter nemore
punkyangel 609: its every1 around u
punkyangel 609: who u care about
punkyangel 609: the most
punkyangel 609: so to miiself
punkyangel 609: if i didnt have ppl to worry about
punkyangel 609: or try and make happie
punkyangel 609: i cud care less if i lived or not
SexiDaddy07: wow
SexiDaddy07: thats something you dont hear every day
punkyangel 609: well thats how i see mii life
punkyangel 609: because
punkyangel 609: the only thing keeping me here
punkyangel 609: is jess maggie nick eddie mii sister and u thats it
punkyangel 609: and i cant die
punkyangel 609: because
punkyangel 609: i have jess
punkyangel 609: to worry about
punkyangel 609: and help
punkyangel 609: i cudnt kill miiself knowing i wud be leaving her behind
punkyangel 609: bc she wudnt make it
punkyangel 609: maggie wud make it
punkyangel 609: but i know she needs me here
punkyangel 609: nd nick
punkyangel 609: i know he needs me here
punkyangel 609: to stop him from making stupid choices
punkyangel 609: mii sister def needs me here
punkyangel 609: even tho she never listens to me
punkyangel 609: mii best frend eddie
punkyangel 609: i know i cant leave him
punkyangel 609: if it werent for me
punkyangel 609: he wudnt be alive today
punkyangel 609: and i cudnt commit suicide
SexiDaddy07: wow
punkyangel 609: knowing that like if i did
punkyangel 609: he wud die too
punkyangel 609: and u
punkyangel 609: i know you went through a lot
punkyangel 609: this summer
punkyangel 609: with everything
punkyangel 609: nd how much i care about you
punkyangel 609: and i had an awesome summer
punkyangel 609: but i know
punkyangel 609: how things can make you feel
punkyangel 609: and how they affect you
punkyangel 609: whether you show it or not
punkyangel 609: specially after hering about the bike
punkyangel 609: i cudnt leave u here either
punkyangel 609: i wud be afraid that u wud do wut u told me u wud do
punkyangel 609: leave
punkyangel 609: and go somewhere
punkyangel 609: nd leave every1 behind
SexiDaddy07: thank you ashley
SexiDaddy07: well there isnt anybody to leave behind but you
SexiDaddy07: but i gotta go
SexiDaddy07: ill ttyl ok? thanks again for at least talking to me
punkyangel 609: well i wudnt want u to leave
punkyangel 609: i do have purpose here
punkyangel 609: if it werent u for
SexiDaddy07: later but not now ok? i love you
punkyangel 609: did u talk to her
SexiDaddy07: yes i did
punkyangel 609: good
SexiDaddy07: thank you ashley
SexiDaddy07: youve helped a lot
SexiDaddy07: i think
SexiDaddy07: maybe this time
SexiDaddy07: maybe
SexiDaddy07: we will fix things
SexiDaddy07: all cause of you
SexiDaddy07: thank you so much
punkyangel 609: good i want yall too
SexiDaddy07: ill brb ok?
punkyangel 609: well i g2g
punkyangel 609: i just wanted to see if you talked to her
punkyangel 609: and i hope yall become friends
SexiDaddy07: alrighty
punkyangel 609: bc it wud make me really happie
punkyangel 609: so ill ttyl
SexiDaddy07: thank you so much
punkyangel 609: good nite
punkyangel 609: your welcome
SexiDaddy07: sweet dreams
punkyangel 609: u2
punkyangel 609: bye
i realized that the ppl that need me keep me here nd if i didnt have ppl that needed me here i cud care less if i live or not ..
richard - i kno things happened this summer but i do still care about you .. nd i hope we stay frends ya know? i cant leave u here bc the fear of u leaving every1 behind nd i mean like when out of no where i wud just ask u wut is wrong even if u acted perfectly fine .. nd there was always something wrong .. i cant leave bc no matter how much u smile nd something is wrong i see past ur smile thats wut a true frend can do .. see through it all nd kno something is wrong! u r awesome!! if things get rough at home u kno where i am if u need me!! just dont get on ur bike please .. that scares me a lot bc i dont want u to leave ppl behind even if u say im the only one u wud be leaving behind .. u kno there are more ppl that u wud be leaving behind .. nd i never like seeing u hurt nd i dont want kayla to hurt u wut so ever .. but since u kno she eventually will let you go im always here for u when nd if she does .. u kno the number nd the sn so just come to me .. nd even if u dont tell me ill still know somethin is wrong!
-ash
